Again last night, Eli was in bed with me and daddy, asking if he will die young…talking about how he will get to know his cousin better in heaven…explaining why he runs so fast from the neighbor’s house to ours if it’s close to dark so that he isn’t killed “walking home” like Corey…

I wonder if the person who took Corey understands that he/she changed so many lives….my sister, his step dad, and his brothers will never stop grieving, will never give up on finding who took him away, that’s a sure bet… but I don’t know if they understand how many other lives they have affected.

I don’t even think that I understood, until now, the ripples that are felt for so long after someone is murdered…

How do I explain to Eli that there’s no way to predict who else might be taken?

How do I make him feel safe again?

How do I let him know that he doesn’t have to say goodbye to his whole family every time he closes his bedroom door?

I hope the person who did this will someday understand who they took from us and how he changed more than one family… come forward and explain yourself… give his family the closure we deserve