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Love is patient.

“Do you find it hard to keep hoping after two years without answers?” Matt Evans asked me this morning.

The question is more specifically “When do you quit hoping for an answer?”
When do you give up looking for your child’s killer?

When do you quit fighting for billboards, and media attention, and for someone to step up and do the right thing?

Let’s ask some other questions.

If Corey would have been here for the last 2 years, how many times would I have told him “I love you”?
How many phone calls would have been traded between us?
How many times would he have reached out for my support?

Look at your own mom. How many times have you either called or wanted to call her in the last 2 years? How many times have you looked to her for help, even if it was just something small?

Or look at your child… if they’re adult, how many times have you called them or had them to dinner? If they are still small, how many times have you run to their aid in the last two years?

I’m still his mom. He’s my son. That relationship hasn’t changed. The only thing that is different now is that he’s dead.

Additionally, there are MILLIONS of people in the world that prove on a daily basis that HOPE can be held onto for an entire lifetime.

As a Christian, I have held on to the hope of Heaven since I was seventeen. I will continue to act in a way that I believe my God wants me to behave… all in HOPE that I will be rewarded when I die!

Additionally, my faith teaches me that LOVE ALWAYS HOPES.

1 Corinthians 13:6-7 (NIV) 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I love Corey. I will always HOPE that we will find the answers we seek. Because I do not delight in evil, and I will rejoice in the truth.

That’s my soapbox.
I’m getting off now.
But let everyone know,

I’m not going anywhere.

Gwen Carver

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