So, the Prosecuting Attorney says, “All Defendants do this… don’t worry.”

But that doesn’t really help me! Because I’m not worried about All Defendants… I only have one to worry about.

The one that killed my son.

I wonder sometimes if this gets to be so repetitive for our law enforcement that they forget that they are dealing with individuals.

And I’m not saying anything negative about our prosecutor. I know that what he’s trying to say is that he’s confident that our case will go forward. But in the same breath, he told me that without the confession, we will have nothing to continue with…

THAT is HORRIFYING!

AND, If you have confessed to “self defense”, why would you even try to have it pulled? Wouldn’t you feel confident enough in your claim that you would let it stand?? I mean really?? Doesn’t contesting your “self defense” admission make you look even MORE guilty???

So, I will admit that 2/3 of my diet right now consists of pop tarts. Why? They are easy, filling, and I don’t have to do anything but rip them open and eat them. Plus they are one of the few things that don’t upset my stomach.

I wear sweats all day and sleep in them all night. When I feel fancy, I pull my hair up in a pony tail… when I don’t, I just leave it in the pony tail from the day before.

I’ve been binge watching Investigation ID TV shows… but only the ones where they catch the killers.

I’ve been researching Criminal Minds shows for tips on how to come up with surprise evidence in the last moment, just in case they squash his confession.

If I could read the prescription my psychiatrist just wrote, I’d be sure… but I think he just increased my Xanax… again.

Please, pray for us on Friday that JDS’s confession holds up. Then, please pray for us on Tuesday that they will pick the right jury to convict him of my son’s murder.

Then, pray that I have the ability to sit in the courtroom and listen to all of the evidence, see pictures of my son, and be near the man that killed him… It will take a lot of strength.